Seriously! It has been three days since I got my lazy butt on here to say anything of no meaning! I had to break that trend today. I figure if I come all the way here with my cup of Joe and field text messages like a hummingbird on crack I can at the very least post something right? Well. Here I am!
The week started out pretty good minus a serious argument with a friend that very nearly sent me over the deep end but I will save that for the made for TV version. Let us just say If I had a gasket I popped it. And I am certainly not talking about in an enjoyable way. I have since made my peace with the situation and decided to move forward.
There has been a few developments on the dating scene that are definitely of note to this blog. One being a pretty hot guy from Saturday night seeming to be something worth checking out. A new date with SkaterMan coming up soon, and OMG something I dare not speak for fear I may just jinx my shot before the timeline on it is created. So wow, what is a guy to do? I say let things go as they will. I am not here to force anything to become something.
Strange thing happened on the way to the market! I had a revelation of sort regarding this whole endeavor of mine to find love in 48 days. I think I have been looking at this the wrong way from the start. You see, I have thought that finding love would in some way come from another person and not realized that what I truly seek is the ability to love another. I have realized that through all life has dealt me over the years my ability to feel secure in caring about another has suffered a great deal. Now that I am aware it is time to fix that. Knowledge is power after all right? So I pledge to me, to be open to the idea of what could be. Ok slap me I don’t know if I am making sense but rest assured in my head the painting comes together.
Today I smile! I am discovering me. I really like this.